Most of my life I have searched for the truth as it relates to God. When I was 18, I traveled all over the U.S. without any money, living about as free a life as one could. While I was traveling, all the concepts of who I thought I was changed greatly. Traveling without money forced me to let go of preconceived ideas about the people around me and my own thoughts about the world. During that time I had an experience of my heart chakra opening. It opened me up to the understanding of unconditional love. At that time, I associated with the idea of being born again. As I tried to relay my experience to others, I quickly realized they could not understand anything past the material essence of things, and the God most people worshipped was as superficial as the lives they lead. Within a couple of years I was back into my search again. There had to be something more. In those couples of years I read just about every occult book I could get my hands on. I knew there was something in all the writing I had read but I could not grasp what it was I was looking at.
There came a moment where a chain of events happened that changed my entire perception of the world and religion forever. I was having a conversation with an individual who was very much into shamanism. After a long conversation, he stated, "You see time and space existing and God separate from your self." I was so baffled by his statement that I started reading books on time and space theory. Once again I knew his statement had truth in it but I was not able to grasp it. About a week after that I was with my girlfriend, and a friend of hers came to the apartment. She said the man had his own religion. I couldn't help thinking to myself that he must be nuts. When I started talking with him about his religion, he said that he was God. It took me three hours of debating with him to try and figure out his angle. It made sense yet I couldn't understand. While we were talking, my girlfriend called him into the other room. I felt I was on the verge of finally making sense of it all and was so frustrated when he walked into the other room. This overwhelming feeling came over me like I would never get it. A few minutes passed and he came back into the room. I asked him, "If you are God then what happens to me when I die?" He simply answered, "You go back to me." As I tried to figure out his answer, he said, "Stop peaking from behind the bushes." At that moment I had this visualization of peaking around the bushes. All of a sudden I felt an energy from the top of my head. Then there was one from my heart chakra. As fast as I noticed both sensations, the energy moved up from my heart chakra to connect with the crown chakra. In that moment I knew the universe is pure energy. All things are connected and that we are indeed God.
I know what I am and, for that matter, I know what we all are, and it is not matter at all. This all happened when I was in my early 20's. I am now 36. For years I could not figure out why me, and to this day I do not know why. I have spent years trying to wake people up to the extent that they can understand. The other thing I don't know is what to do with it outside of trying to show people there is more then what they perceive. I sometimes find it a great burden, but for me it is the greatest story of my life and I get to tell it so little.
There are only a few things I seek in this life:
1) Understanding my experience.
2) How to put it to good use
3) The last and final thing is who has lied to humanity for millennia?
*****We're grateful to Dave for sharing this epiphany with us (and anyone else who has a similar tale to tell should get in touch). The shaman Dave encountered sounds like someone who has managed to make regular contact with his divine spark, and thus to have become truly enlightened, to the extent that, without embarrassment or self-consciousness, he can state that he is God. Only people who have been on astounding personal quests, or who have successfully passed through every degree of a mystery religion such as Illumination, can reach such a state.
"When the doors of perception are cleansed, man will see everything as it is, infinite."
Dave also said, "What I would be interested in the most is learning how to utilize my experience to awaken others. Over the years, I have learned a great deal of information and found how all things in life connect. If one were truly to see that language, science, mathematics, art, and music in the deeper aspects reveal divinity in all things, the world would be changed overnight. Unfortunately, trying to relay anything outside of the latest episode of American Idol seems to be a difficult task in the world of zombies."Dave is right. Nothing is more difficult than trying to awaken those who have been long asleep, yet hope still glimmers in the deep shadows. Even those shallow people who watch American Idol are aware of a spiritual vacuum in their lives. What they need, above all, are ideas and experiences to take them away from their current trivial mindset. But that's where the "genius" of the Demiurge comes is. He created religions such as Christianity, Islam and Judaism that manage to turn the sacred and transcendent into a tedious chore to be performed every Sabbath. In the past, these religions terrified believers into compliance with their visions of eternal torment in hell, but the modern mind finds it harder and harder to envisage that fiery hell that haunted medieval thinking.
The word that best applies to religion in the contemporary world is "boring". Some believers whip themselves into a frenzy of fanaticism in a desperate attempt to resurrect some vestige of religious passion, but the harder they struggle to find authenticity, the more they seem like the most fake people on earth. The Christian fundamentalists of America yearning for the "Rapture", the Orthodox Jews nodding like asses in front of the Wailing Wall, the suicide killers of Islam…these people are desperate beyond words. Their common factor is that they are full of hatred for those who don't share their beliefs, and have an exterminatory mentality. The world would be paradise, they think, if they could kill everyone who disagrees with them. Despite their gaping theological differences, they have much more in common with each other than with the rest of humanity. Most of the savagery and hatred in the world stems from precisely those people who claim to be the strongest believers in a good, compassionate, loving and forgiving God.The old revealed religions must be swept away and be replaced by initiatory, mystery religions that are designed to awaken the human spirit rather than twist it and turn it toxic.American Idol is a symbol of the modern version of religion - celebrity. Celebrities are our new gods. Ordinary people crave the celebrities' fame, their looks, their personalities, their wealth, their power, their status. They represent everything ordinary people are not and everything ordinary people want to be. If only we could become celebrities, they say, all of our problems would end. We would have all we ever desired.Our homes have become our churches where we each have our personal Ark of the Covenant - our TV set - that allows us to contact the divine. Our flatscreen TVs reveal the holy paradise of celebrity to us. The judging panel of American Idol are all St Peters, holding the keys to the gates of heaven. If only we could get through those gates we would be gods.Yet these celebrities are the most selfish, greedy, undeserving, uninspiring, shallow and fake gods ever devised. They are all about "me" and nothing to do with "we". "Because I'm worth it," they say. A celebrity is the glorification of the individual at everyone else's expense. A true God is on everyone's side, not his own. How could anyone worship a god who worships himself? Yet celebrities and the super-rich are now those onto whom we project our notions of divinity. The transcendent sense of the divine has all but disappeared from the modern mind. Humanity cannot progress until is has found it again. Dave is one of the fortunate ones because he has glimpsed a higher reality, yet he rightly sees it as a sort of burden because an experience like that cuts him off from all those around him. What should he do? Give up and watch American Idol? Life would lose all meaning for him. Dave, like all of those who seek the truth of the human condition, has no choice. He must keep searching. Ordinary people are living under the seductive spell of the Demiurge. How can it be broken? The answer is to seduce them with something else, a greater magic, something that speaks to them much more powerfully. Yet no task could be more difficult. The Power Elite who run the world have poured everything into keeping the world in a zombified stupor of trivia and consumerism. The people behind American Idol are some of the richest people on earth. They know exactly how to manipulate the masses. But there are points of light in the darkness. Look at how successful Zeitgeist was in getting people to watch hours of radical, subversive messages. But it wasn't successful enough. It was a clear stream running into a vast ocean of pollution. The message soon vanished, replaced by new distractions.We need many more Zeitgeists, many more dynamic movements, a critical mass of new thinking that sweeps away the Old World Order with their sterile, materialistic view of humanity.Everyone has to do their bit, to make their contribution. The masses will start to pay attention when they see that a group is arising amongst them that offers a radical new vision. No politician is going to bring about a new society, so forget elections; forget Obama and any other would-be political "Messiah". The media aren't going to chase anything other than ratings, so forget them. Corporations aren't interested in anything other than chasing profits, so forget them. Conventional religions aren't interested in anything other than trying to prop up belief systems that died in people's hearts and souls long ago, so forget them. There's no one left to turn to. We can rely only on ourselves.We encourage everyone to take part in the Movement that we described in the article preceding this one. Meet up with other like-minded people in your area. Start campaigning. Start promoting new ideas. Stop taking part in the American Idol society. We have given a broad outline of what we think the Movement should be, but it's not for us to dictate to anyone. It's up to each of you to shape the Movement. It's your creativity that counts. There are no right answers and no wrong ones when it comes to the Movement. Some ideas will work and flourish, others won't and will perish. That's evolution. But evolution requires everyone to try or the only game in town will be the Demiurge's, and haven't we had enough of that?Become active rather than passive. Change yourselves. Change the world. The very act of trying will inspire you. No one is saying it's easy - it isn't - but nothing will change without effort and struggle. Christianity is the dominant religion now, but it took hundreds of years to get there and the early Christians (who, thanks to the influence of Gnosticism on early Christianity, were almost the opposite of modern Christians) suffered terrible persecution. Nowadays, there is little danger of overt persecution, and the Internet can allow new ideas to traverse the world in moments and capture the imagination of the masses. It's up to us. No one is coming to help us. If we don't make the effort, no one else will. And who are we going to blame then?The prize is the whole of humanity reaching out towards its collective divine spark, and finally achieving gnosis, individually and collectively. Compare that with the Demiurge's world of shopping malls and American Idol. Idol is the right word. The world is currently worshipping the falsest of gods.
It's time for a new dawn, a new humanity, a new world order.